As one learns how to dream one should learn how to let them go when the time is right...
Wanting many things, having many dreams is something humanbeings have incommon. Some accept reality and let go of unrealistic hopes and some fight for those dreams; but what happens when one no longer knows which one they should follow?
I have been so confused lately not knowing what I really want following a dream I had 4 years ago trying to live it and yet not believing in it. I realized that I somehow started gathering alot of my dreams and hopes to pick one, really scared of choosing the wrong one. Afraid of forcing myself into living a dream that was dead but the truth was so different.
Trying so hard to find my real dream not wanting to settle, only confused me until I once again was reminded why I wanted to take that path in the first place and the answer was really simple. I loved it, no I love it and I'm not settling for anything less and my other dreams will also be lived inshallah if they still exist when their time comes.
I still love writing and will continue doing that, but colors and forms is who I am, so graphic design here I come. I went to register today but had some complications so I have to wait a while before I apply but atleast I know what I want. The neighborhood next to the university is very nice a place where i can see myself living so hopefully I'll find my dream apartment there soon, wish me luck :D
måndagen den 26:e juli 2010
fredagen den 2:e juli 2010
In Lebanon for good...
Or three years :P
I'm in Lebanon along with most of my belongings and Börje my precious huge teddy moose who's still rapped up (afraid of dust reaching him).
I was slowly forgetting why I chose this country why I decided to study in Lebanon. My dream of living here wasn't as clear as I thought it would be I nolonger saw why I wanted to live in Lebanon. I read a letter I wrote three years ago where I had written all my answers to my being here.
The me three years ago surprised me with all the possitivethinking and dreams that the me today have share with her the only difference is that I today don't belive that those dreams can come true and I somehow try to run away.
Not so happy here right now stressed out, pissed of and really nervous and the people around me aint helping. My parents have been great though God have given me a great treasure. Feeling really low and the worst part is that my shingos are the ones causing that with out knowing....( can't blame them they don't really do anything to be blamed for)
I'm in Lebanon along with most of my belongings and Börje my precious huge teddy moose who's still rapped up (afraid of dust reaching him).
I was slowly forgetting why I chose this country why I decided to study in Lebanon. My dream of living here wasn't as clear as I thought it would be I nolonger saw why I wanted to live in Lebanon. I read a letter I wrote three years ago where I had written all my answers to my being here.
The me three years ago surprised me with all the possitivethinking and dreams that the me today have share with her the only difference is that I today don't belive that those dreams can come true and I somehow try to run away.
Not so happy here right now stressed out, pissed of and really nervous and the people around me aint helping. My parents have been great though God have given me a great treasure. Feeling really low and the worst part is that my shingos are the ones causing that with out knowing....( can't blame them they don't really do anything to be blamed for)
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