It's 5 in the morning, my throat is killing me, the fever is keeping me cold and my hedache isn't leaving me. Ahh I'm getting nervous seriously, I didn't feel it before maybe because it didn't feel real until now :S. I'll give details later on but for now I have to be discreet or else a giddo will hit me with a baloon. Makes no sence right? Well just consider it the fever talking and wish me luck!

And Jass my great shrimp from pinguin land you're short movie will rock!!! Had a great time shooting, it would've been more fun with minush there but Panda made it so all is good! If Jass alows it I'll post her piece of art as soon as she's done with it. Minushi it feels so wrong with out you in Sweden even if it's only 3 days it's weird! Okaay this short text took me more than half an hour to write... I'm going to try to resleep goodnight or morning...

South Korea and China

 Here we comeee!!!!!

Guesss WhaaT??!!! Guess WhaaaTTTT??!!! If you were thinking oh no it can't be they booked the tickets for Korea and China then your Deaddddly RIGHT!!!!! Omoo Omooo Omooo it happened!!!! For all of you who thought or said anything about this trip only being a dream IN YOUR FACEssss!!!

Okay I'm sorry too mean but I'm simply too haPPyyy ^^

...soon

I finally made my decision and even if you keep bugging me, I will follow what I chose! As for you who has no life, get one!!! Atleast you made me laugh i'll give you credit for that. I had  a really good day, felt bad about missing lunch with minaya,shrimp and Jin hyung, but I had to take care of some arrands and got a clear picture of what I should do for my own sake.

I've been hearing people calling me too nice for my own sake, I know you think Iam but believe me I'm not. It's not that I'm trying to be humble but seriously I can be a snake (very mean). So if you haven't seen that from me it's because you haven't stepped on my tail and if you have then you know there's a reason for it! I wanto say that it's always bad if you hurt someone because it is, but I choose not to controll myself when you enter the forbidden border, and it's not to make you feel bad but it's to give you a clear picture of what you do!

The year of Dragon!

May this year be filled with happiness, health and fortune...

I celebrated my first Chinese new year today with great people, some that I today met for the first time. To be honest I kind of felt bad about going there at first, I don't want to give out why, but I'm so happy I did. Me going there was never about the food, but to tell you the truth the food made my day! I was really chocked when Panda explained  that they had bought halal slaughtered meat, I really didn't expect that. It's not about me being able to eat the meat but about that action. Really hard explaining but seriously....

My favorite moment was when we were making dumplings and bonding, hahahahaha like seriously some moments where too funny. But my All time favorite moment was gathering at last around the table with everyone whith a view of REAL Chinese fooD! IT was really really really greaT!! One dish that caught my attention more than any other was Pandas fish, he was explaining that there has to be a fish and that they keep the tail and head because they represent the beginning and the end...

RainBow!!!

Today has been overwhelming with good news so right now I see myself in a very colorful, sweet place :P Lhamdella, Lhamdella, Lhamdella Thank you God for not only smoothing my way but also for knocking sense into my head!

Something I haven't written about is that I'm invited to a Chinese New Year dinner this sunday, I'm really excited about it and not only because of the new experience I'm looking forward to but because of the people I'm going to celebrate it with. And wow you actually thought about me in the process, just the thought of someone really caring is just like... Pfft I'm not touched at all :P well I'm off to watch pocahontas now, so long readers...

Pikkabuu!

I love when I start something new, it feels as if a blank page is waiting for me to fill it. I always try to ignore when people tell me that I can't do it or that it's to hard or even if I feel that somethings is to complicated. There's this theory that says people believe when other tell them that it's impossible and alot of people actually decide based on that. but I'm not going to be one of them I'm not going to give up because someone tells me that it's impossible, I'll look for answers and if it doesn't suit me than I'll decide wether it's worth it or not. People always remember that you alone decide what you can do, don't listen to impossible listen to is it worth it? and just do your thing!

I had a great day even though my salad cost me 55kr, my reaction was 55kr? The one selling the sallad replays Yes 55kr with a huge smile as if it was normal, dude I could've gotten a whole meal for that amount or 4 meals in Korea :/ . I could only say mmmm... giving her the money. HAHAHA Emine was as chocked as I was and both were thinking crap the korea money, the korea money... Well atleast i got plenty of cherry tomatoes right soulmate ? :P I also signed my first paycheck receit or whatever I should call it. I had a great day being a lost soul, with my soulmate keh keh keh...

Crossing over

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I had to make that phone-call otherwise I would never have come this far and even though I don't trust your answer I still feel good about making that call because I realized something I should have done along time ago. Thank you for showing your true colors, now I can rest at ease, now I can live on with no regrets, now I can start living... from now on you're just a stranger who has no place in my memories or heart... I made it alive crossing over that fire and now I'm going to start living... Lhamdella, Lhamdella, lhamdella

Back to dramas

Haven't watched a Korean Drama all week so here I come ... Good night fellows ^^

too much for one day

And then it got better... Lhamdella

I can't even count the bad news today and even if I did I wouldn't be able to talk about it. But even though half of my issues has no solution and the rest has a solution that won't satisfy me. But hearing that OMG like seriously made things better... That's what people can do even if it's only a though it does make a difference! Lhamdella, Lhamdella, lhamdella

Ahhh just one thing left...

Time for me to go to sleep and tomorrow hopefully It'll all be over, I have my last exam and then I get to breathe! Maybe I'll have some time over to paint? It has been a while since I did that and it feels so bad not giving that side of me enough time. Speaking of time I need to get my vaccination and start working on my Korean. :P

Emine and Jass Aja Aja fighting I know your being more stressed out than me but you guys are amazing and you'll make it alive <3 Mona you seriously made my day, not because of "that" but because you just proved to yourself before anyone that you can look outside of that box and you can do more even if others think otherwise and because you found that strength you always had and your using it... It feels good knowing that we're in this together it gives me more strength <3 Charesso Tshingoya !!! ^^

Bästiiiis missing you happy to finally seeing you breathe <3