Weo?

Why?

I used to never question things knowing that everything had its reasons, I still believe that everything is connected to something and that an explanation could be found if one tried hard enough or that it someday would apear to you.

But why do I still ask the same question, why do I always ask Why? Even after knowing the answer. Yes I still want to ask you why? Why did you force me to accept and yet decline you? Why did you build that huge wall knowing that I would never be able to climb it? Why be happy and yet show me that somethings missing. Why let me scream out your name when you know you can't answer it? Why? Why? Why?

I stoped looking back but why do I keep seeing you infront of me? I hate asking questions knowing the answer, I hate asking questions knowing that the answer would always be the same, that it would always be imposible.

My Graduation Cap!

I finally got my graduation cap after some trouble. Me being in Lebanon made things a bit complicated I was kind of late but I'm happy everythings settled I've got da clothes da shoes and da cap now I only have to wait for the day to come... Or not Still preparing things for my party found only three good songs (mawlid) gotta search on!  Anyhow here comes a couple of pictures of my pride :)

Back home

Here Iam back at home sitting in my room infront of my computer as if I never left. It has already been 13 day since I set my foot in Swedish land, it feels as if time is running too fast when I'm desperately trying to grab it and make it stop so that I would be able to enjoy my last month here before following my dream in Lebanon.

Pain, tears, joy and laughter was what my trip to Lebanon offered, exacly what I expected. Everything is going by so fast and I'm trying to take care  everythig before I leave can't believe that its almost here that I'm only two weeks from graduating high school!

Count Down...

Only 5 days left until I leave Lebanon once again, it has already been over a month. I miss Sweden alot and longing to go back but I'm still having weird feeling saying that I somehow wanna stay here. If only they were one if only I could have both if only...

I turned 20 years old 4 days ago and Hala made that day rock along with Tota. Not to mention Rania and her kids. My dad also threw me a birthday party that he was going to surprise me with until he ... well he has a hard time keeping things to himself so... yeah. Anyhow At Hala's just watched 3 episodes of personal taste and omg can't wait for episode 11.

One thing I would like to do before going back home is meeting a friend that I before didn't acknowledge as one hopefully I'll catch that person to make sure that, that stalker still is alive and well so I can share a kick or two and maybe pinching should be involved to? And damn I haven't contacted dania yet I've been really busy :S