New Year's Eve

Some people feel that walking into a new year is walking into a fresh start and that's good because somehow it motivates you to make the most of the new year. I don't see it like that though, it's more like cleaning my wardrobe and throwing away what shouldn't be there. I pick my most important things I need and want, to be able to come closer to my new goals for this Year!

Today is also the day when our beloved Imam al Hassan was poisoned by his wife, may God curse those who where the reason behind his death and those who knew about it and did nothing to prevent it! We're not celebrating New Years Eve at home but we're going to have a family dinner in your honor... Allah yel3an man Zalam Ahlul-Bayt...

No What if's

It can happen if you want it to happen...
If something is important to you than you'll find a way and if not you'll find an exuse. This sentence speaks so loud it's hurting my ears and pobably my heart if I had one to say :P No but seriously this God it's so true wether it's about religion, studies, hobbies, love and etc. If one doesn't find a way to make it happen then it's because it's not important to that person there's always a way!

Ouriii Soulmates!

Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella...

I can't get enough of this word because nomatter how I try to describe what I feel, that word comesto mind. I was really upset yesterday thinking about those who forgot, so upset that I wrote in Swedish. I almost forgot about those who remembers which alot of people does and hopefully I'm one of them. 

Today has been great like seriously, I woke up with swollen eyes still upset about yesterday just searching for something, just anything to prove me wrong. I found alot of people who loves Ahlul-bayt and works hard showing it, so I'm really happy, because the thought of forgetting them takes away all hope I have in life. I know what your thinking, I'm too much but you know what Ahlul-bayt is that huge and for you who know them you'll also understand why I'm that attached to them.

I spend a great day with my soulmates today, It felt so good to finally be gathered lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella for letting me meet these people, like seriously amazing people who really cares! We had our usual hindi bindi thing going on at Emines place and ofcourse Julmust and Ramen! The movie was special haha like whaat? and the food well it's Ramen so of course it's great and Julmust mmm.... Just can't get over it! But nomatter what we watch or what we eat it's always great aslong as your with the right people and you guys are too good to be true Sarangheee!!! Like Emine only the thought of you actually bringing that up gave me warmth and Jassmin I didn't eat your cousins... It was mona :P

Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella.. 

It was while tricking you to deep sleep that I realised how much I've missed you, I might not have said this before but I'm really really happy you're here...Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella

Ahlul-bayt!

Abad wallah lan ansa Hussayna... Förlåt förlåt och förlåt om jag i mina handlingar har kränkt dig eller den frihet du givit mig. Du offrade dig villigt för att visa hur viktigt det är att handla rätt och att aldrig ge upp sin rätt. Varje gång jag tänker på din syster och det hon fick uppleva efter dig för att nå ut till dina följare fylls jag med vrede gentemot de som följer och vet men ändå ignorerar ahlul-bayts missöde genom att handla fel och säga att de bara e så att  de väljer denna värld framför dem och Gud . Den dag jag glömmer och handlar utifrån vad människor omkring mig vill att jag ska handla ell om jag bara utgår från de världsliga behoven, istället för att göra det jag tror är rätt är den dag jag förlorar mig själv och kontakten jag har med er. Det som hände er kan ingen förneka, för vissa är det kanske ett kapitel i historia boken som får en att gråta men mina tårar är inte det som visar min kärlek, respekt och tilltro. Detta kapitel har inte skrivits klart och våra handlingar efter deras önskningar och Guds vägledning är det som kan avsluta kapitlet.

Shopping / eating!

It has been 3 days now and lhamdella we've had lots of quality time. Today our theme was shopping!!! Sales started today and of course the whole city with their families were there fighting for their stuff. Mounas sister and her friends found good stuff I didn't really click with anything until, until  it started calling for me... My feet just followed the sound of my heart and united me with my new bag!!! I was so tired and fell asleep at Umzahra's couch waiting for Princess to come to start baking.Well can't complain cause waking up to the smell of new baked bullar was heavenly!!! Just came back home and I feel exhausted but I just can't fall asleep. I don't know if it's because I was tired but Umzahraa's couch is the most comfortable thing I slept on I haven't felt this comfortable in a long time!!!

Pikkabuuu!!

Ahhh today has been really busy in a good way though... Even

when I fell asleep in the laundryroom while Princess was doing the Laundry. Tomorrow finally the day I have been waiting for SALESSS DAAAY!!!! here are some pictures of my day With Emine and Mona only little shrimp missing!!! 

Another daY

I feel exhausted, I'm really tired just tired like tired to death, tired. Today is a special day though, Mona landed on this country we call Sweden and this week will be filled with her blessings :). Welcome home crazy and hopefully you'll enjoy your stay! Had a nice day with Umzahraa, Ali rida and Hajdar not to bring up seeing Mona of course :)

A nice day...

TodaY has been a busy day... I was so bored at first thinking hmmm something must be done and Jass at that moment wrote on facebook that she also was bored so sim salabim and magic happened! Jass, Emine and I had a really nice time drinking bitter tea with lussekatter in a Korean way. An early Christmas celebration to say :P We also walked around in the cold before treating ourselves with hot tea, but the best part of it was us three going crazy about everything possible I just love our gatherings haha we're really special the only one missing was Mona which hopefully will be here today. She's coming to visit from Lebanon.

But the rest of the evening wasn't any less of fun when Princess, Umzahraa and Ola gathered to enjoy the rest of the evening Even thought that Kalaha game depressed me. Just came back home and my mom (Haram= poor her) was worried to death because I didn't call about being late and well I just got home ( 1 am). I feel so bad making her worry but I didn't expect that, I guess I'm used to noone caring Aah Mulla( I dnt know). Like even before me moving out I used to always be late so I didn't expect a reaction seriously I feel so bad about her, I think she started crying seeing her swollen eyes :S And I even make it impossible for her to blame me I don't even give her a chance to yell because Iam the way Iam or as she calls me Hasan Sabe (tom boy). 

I just love this picture just like wayne asked, what camera is she looking into? And hahaaha both of you girls like were there other cameras around?!













This game just gives me a depressing feeling :S
















And Umzahra me gonna steal this some day so keep your eyes... Closed :P

Hindi night! ^^

Hindustan :P thats what they used to call India, Emine, Jassmin and I had one of our awsome hindi nights yesterday. We ate delicious food Emine made to end it with popcorn and Julmust while watching Jodha Akbar, a hindi movie ofcourse :P It was a really nice movie (even though that annoying weird sound interupted) based on a true story. There has been discussions about twisting history a bit (typical) so one can't believe in everything.

Ahh Julmust it has been a year and a half since I drank that and let me just say I was all gone after taking the first sip and it's a non alcoholic drink!!! Just writing about it makes me want to drink some so I'm gonna go get me some Julmust!!!

Not so succesful :P

So I had my "opponering" today opponering means opposition. It's when we have to criticize another group members work. Lets just say that I wasn't as prepared as I thought I would be and I got to start dudee that wasn't fun. I never get to start usually and I was hoping not to this time but my oh my I didn't get the chance to  see how things were supposed to be, well atleast I gave the other an  Idea of what it shouldn't be. Hahaha but I guess it went well afterwards :P

Me today before going to UNI thinking that I was going to do a good job :P ( MAn was I wrong :P)

Rest, rest rest and trusting

Today is ment for resting, so Korean dramas, Food, Facebook (ofcourse) and beauty sleep :P

Ma ra2ayto min rabbi illa Jamela <3 Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella

I have not seen anything but beauty from God !!!!

Happy b-day and don't say that!

Today is a really special day, today not that long ago a very evil friend of mine was born. You have no Idea of how greatful Iam to God for giving us human kind an Angel on earth. Lhamdella my precious one I wish you a great year filled with joy and success in whatever you put your heart into <3 love you heapsss!!!

Another great thing today is that I finally finished my report and only have one thing left before finishing this course. Lhamdella, lhamdella, lhamdella!

From being happy to my dramatic chapter this week...
I care even if you don't know it, I do I hope me being there can help you pull through... Never say that again, never bring that up again, you mean so much to me and alot of other people, jsut the though of loosing you to was tearing me apart. Don't say that you hope for that to happen!!!

Falling for the right one...

Why do we fall inlove and who are we allowed to be with?

There's a difference between being inlove and loving something about a person. Alot of people answers the question, why do you love him/her? With: "I don't know, there's alot of reasons". I have no Idea what to say except for the heart, I see that persons heart... I don't know if we're neutral, evil or good when we get born, but I know that we as individuals get formed through experience offered along the path of life. Some has there good side dominating and some has there bad side dominating, but I always belive that both sides exist. I think, well I'm not sure but I think it's that we see their good sides and even though we clearly know they have a bad one to we ignore because we believe in them, we see that persons heart...

Age difference, etnicity, religion, political views, different society classes are some reasons for standing in the way of what we're allowed to feel and for whom. Some might think who cares all is allowed in love and war, but I know that reality isn't that way atleast not for me. For me it's religion, what I'm trying to say is that you know what you believe in and you know your limits so don't jump into something you can't handle and even if you can make it alive the other person might not. Even if you see that heart don't try to make it yours unless your 100% sure that you'll keep it safe...

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I know I should, but I cant ignore this day. Happy birthday...

CleaninG DaY!!

I totally forgot about cleaning day and brought my laptop to uni thinking, todaY I'll finnish my report but then Emine hits me with the fact that today is ment for us to clean the "entertainment" building. Emine and I got the"garderob" to clean and Wayne came by later on for the finishing touch. Here's some pictures of us working hard! 

The day had a nice ending and we were al Happy to be able to go home... Plus we had a nice time together me, shrimp and minaya making fun of someone with a fixation for white clothes... Hahahah that person was really cute during childhood.... 

My Friends my SouLmaTes...

It's really nice when someone can keep a long friendship, it's really nice knowing that you've known that person for 10 or 50 years. But you know what's better finding friends you know you want to have in your life, for the rest of it. Some people might find their soulmate in their partner but I'm sorry for my future husband to say that I found my soulmates and he's not one of them :P. My soulmates, my apple pies, my partners in craziness. Your place can't be given away even if I loose you, no one would be able to fill that space!

Thank you for being in my life and hopefully we'll always be united!!! Sarangheayooo <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

It's been a good day!

AAAhhhh finaalllyyy!!!!

So I'm done with my home exam, Komawooo Emine for helping me getting started like tshinsha you are my muse!!! I  don't know if you've noticed but I've been kind of down lately, but all is good now and nomatter how depressed I seem to be don't believe me I'm fine, I'm always fineee!!!!

I'm really blessed lhamdella, you guys have no Idea how happy Iam right now and I don't care about whatever bad things surrounding me because whatever good is making everything worth it. Lhamdella

SOmething old...

I was reading my old posts and  bumped into this, hopefully I've changed :S

My true self?

Looking into a mirror...

I did alot of thinking today trying to figure out how I ended up being such a mess. From being called a nun to becoming a heartless witch. I used to care about more than my ownself, I used to be happy if others were better than me, I used to never make misstakes when it came to my friends, to always be there, I used to never lie.

I believe that somehow  a part of these qualities still exist in me but I don't feel it. Today I see myself saying sorry too many times when it's something I never had to do before, something I never knew how to do.  Today I see only the worst in people when I used to see the best. I'm trying to hold on to my oldself to be the way I should be, but people around me are making it impossible. Yesterday for me was a place where I could be myself without turning into the person that Iam today. An empty person.

I stopped caring, getting surprised or expecting things from others. I can seriously see a ghost now and still not react in any special way. I of course care about alot of people and the world that's something that I can't change even if I tried to wich I have. But I stopped caring about... Well myself I guess? Like this competition I'm in, Im forcing myself to be exited about it, when I really don't care or if I phisically hurt myself I feel the pain but I still don't care about it.

I noticed how hard and strict I have become, how easy I start to hate or judge someone and how easy it is for me to decide to let go of people. I looked into the mirror to see the same face I see everyday, but felt as if I was standing infront of a stranger, feeling sorry for her.

Grey Zone...

Nomatter how dark it seems to be, nomatter how rough the road is, don't give up! Be the light and build up your strength to be able to get up after falling. That's what I tell myself... Lhamdella Lhamdella, lhamdella

There's a reason for everything, nomatter how much I hate certain things happening to me and the people around me I still see it. It takes time to understand why but at the end of the day there is a because. You don't always have to find the because but it's always there so don't give up!!! Lhamdella Lhamdella lhamdella

(Lhamdella= Thank God, Thanks God)

10th day of Ashura...

It's the tenth day of Ashoura, it's thee day! Many people might wonder why this day is never forgotten. Many might wonder why our tears could create not only ponds but oceans. Many might be scared and judgemental thinking that it's time to get over it, that tears are of no use, that the past should be kept in the past!

My tears comes from my heart and they are no burden nor dangerous. My tears comes from my mind who was taught the difference between right and wrong. My tears, they bear a message a message you'll understand if you know half the things I do. If you knew about half of the sacrifice Ahlul-bayt made, half of the torture they went trough and half of the story of how they where brutally murdered.

The past is better staying in the past, but what happens when the past becomes the future? And not only when it comes to muslims alone. Opression is everywhere I wish we could leave the past in the past but when the past becomes apart of my life today, that's when you have no saying in me bringing up the past. Every year I get "recharged" I get reminded That I no matter what should stand up for what's right, for my right nomatter what the Odds say!

Whatever bloody scenes some people creates, it is not Islam it is not what shias stands for. It is only a traditions that most of us muslims don't believe in. And for you who stand for such behavior think about what God said about hurting yourself and think about how Imam Al-hussein and Saida Zainab would react! May God  fill us with knowledge and purity in our hearts!

“If Hussain [a.s] fought to quench his worldly desires, then I do not understand why his sisters, 
wives and children accompanied him. It stands to reason therefore that he sacrificed purely for 
Islam.”
Charles Dickens - (1812-1870) English novelists of the Victorian period

Sunday...

I finished my internship this friday and had an exam this saturday, yes I know at uni on a saturday :S Well it ended up being a good day with my tshingos. This week is going to bee really stressful I have soo many things I need to finish alot of assignments.

Watched a really good movie today on youtube, about ahlul-bayt. This movie shows a part of what happened to Imam Husseins family after he's brutaly murdered. Muslim or not this is a really good true story worth watching!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s58G4ufcffQ&feature=related
 I had a wrong link at first this is the one with eng subs!!!