I try to tell myself that I shouldn't but what do I do when there's no drama too watch no energi to plan for the future, noone to talk to. Great love stories end in misery? great love stories shouldn't end even when death do you apart. You shouldn't be able to win over true love, you should never give up on it, because that would be your ultimate dream, your future plan...Your treasure !
I remember once writing about how scared I was thinking that all of my hapiness would be taken away... I was right it happened... Again. They robbed the only person who made me feel alive, no not they I'm sorry he gave me up as soon as we got some obsticles. For him being happy means getting everything the easyway.
I remember once writing about how scared I was thinking that all of my hapiness would be taken away... I was right it happened... Again. They robbed the only person who made me feel alive, no not they I'm sorry he gave me up as soon as we got some obsticles. For him being happy means getting everything the easyway.
I really want my life to end but I can't end it because I know better, because I know that I don't have the right to end it. I'm really sick of pretending that everything is okay, I'm so sick of hearing people say we can't see you this way, don't cry, your strong, get over it. I might have always given an impression of me being strong and indeppendant and hopefully some of it is true, but does that mean that it's okay to decide for me to give me a death penalty and still count on me to survive it. If you want to give me death penalty, kill me, just take my life instead of pushing me of a cliff expecting me to know how to swim. I don't know how to swim and even if I did I would choose to drown because it's actually you pushing me...
Nothing is wrong with you ofcourse you're unhappy but trying to keep yourself uccupied is not the right way to do it. Allow yourself tro cry your heart out but everytime you feel like you're missing that someone, remembering the good times, also remember why it ended and remember that you deserve someone who goes ALL IN just like you do. You're going to get it allah keteb la kell insen nasibo and you're going to get yours you are going to get someone who will never ever let you go and when obstacles come your way he's going to hold your hand and tell you lets face them together because you're not worthy less than that. And don't say you can't swim because you can and you're doing it. Atleast you are looking ahead you have something to look forward to. Put your heart into it and you'll do great. You will. And you have tons of friends who care deeply about you and whom you've been there for all the time. Make sure you allow them to be there for you and talk to them. You have people to talk to take advantage of that even if you don't feel like talking at all. Good luck with everything and when you're down just scream OMG I'M GOING TO OPEN A FREAKING CAFE!!! You are going to open a cafe so look forward to that, feel the joy and let that dream; that goal make you swim.
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