In Lebanon for good...

Or three years :P

I'm in Lebanon along with most of my belongings and Börje my precious huge teddy moose who's still rapped up (afraid of dust reaching him).

I was slowly forgetting why I chose this country why I decided to study in Lebanon. My dream of living here wasn't as clear as I thought it would be I nolonger saw why I wanted to live in Lebanon. I read a letter I wrote three years ago where I had written all my answers to my being here.

The me three years ago surprised me with all the possitivethinking and dreams that the me today have share with her the only difference is that I today don't belive that those dreams can come true and I somehow try to run away.

Not so happy here right now stressed out, pissed of and really nervous and the people around me aint helping. My parents have been great though God have given me a great treasure. Feeling really low and the worst part is that my shingos are the ones causing that with out knowing....( can't blame them they don't really do anything to be blamed for)