3id aDha

DaY 2...

A sick and sleepless giddo, a bored and dissapointed bestiis, princess suffering from school and a too busy umzahraa. I feel guilty being able too enjoy this years 3id adha when my favorites arn't. I don't know about other but this years adha for me felt different, it felt special.

I wish I could share this feeling with all my friends and family members and I hope that they somehow were  effected by my spirit even if it only lasted for a brief moment. Your happiness is my happiness so keep on being happy to always make me happy! :P

3id moubaraaaK!

A day when joy is a must...

I finished class early today, feeling possitive about going home to celebrate this special day. I was determine to be happy, to get that perfect 3id with my family atleast once before I move out to study in a whole different city or even country.

Well I got a perfect day, witch was all about food, family, friends, the simpsons and julmust of course. I had a great time, the only thing missing were people, whom I wished to share this day with. I hope that everyone today has a reason for smiling and feeling warmth, atleast having one reason to be happy...

Having trouble feeling joy? Look up at the beautiful dark sky field who's filled with stars or just do anything you enjoy or like. I wish you all a great 3id adha...

Breath in...

breath out!
How many people have problems? How many think that it can't get worse? How many loose hope before even giving it a chance?

It's so true there isn't one person on earth who doesn't have issues. Wether it's about loosing a special person, relationships, war, disease , money or even not being able to buy a certain bag or not being able to go to that party, is considered to be a problem that sometimes can make one think of this earth as hell.

No one is fully satisfied and just by looking around myself I understand why. But then again why see things from only one perspective and why not make the most of what one has? Easier said than done right?  One feels hurt, dissapointed, sometimes even betrayed and a question we often ask is, why me?Letting the drama and stubborness get in the way of what could give you real joy.

It makes one ignore everything good around, to only see the bad to make it even worse. We forget to breath out after breathing in to see ourselves giving in to our minds darker side. That dark side tell you that everything is scrued and that life isn't worth it and the question why me? Pops up more than one can count...

See you

again hopefully
We meet alot of people during our lives. Most of our relationships with them end due to circumstances wich leads to loosing contact with them when we thought we never would.

Not interacting with those people doesn't mean that they mean nothing too us. At least not in my case where I constantly remember them wishing to go back in time to appriciate them more to seize every moment together.

We usually don't realize how much they mean or how much we miss them until we once again see or hear from them or even by just thinking about them.

My heart started jumping and my tears were almost about to run wild when I looked up old friends on face book or when I was looked up by them. Tobias you made my day, seeing you, sitting and talking like old times, made my two hours of waiting for a cancelled lesson worth it!

My perfecT HoT Coco

Is found...

My first official visit to expresso house was today, I know... A bit too late but what can I say too much to do too little time. I had a great time there with Princess, Em and Irsa but the best part of course was the heavenly hot coco they served there. It took me to a whole new level, the company was great and just sitting and talking about all kind of nonesence was refreshing, I hadn't seen them in a while and not seeing princess for over a week is just not normal in my worLd.

I got exactly what I needed after doing the worse presentation ever at school, it was the first time I showed myself being nervous and even pointed it out maybe more then two times during my speech. It all ended out well though, thanks girls for making my day a brighter one ;).

I also bumped into Giddo, Jandhi, Nushin and Nemo on my way to the bank to finally activate my card wich I should have done a month ago. Biane Giddo for not passing by but I really did it for your own best wether you believe it or not. By the way Jhandi your new hair cut was too perfect loved it... Totally jealous :P

A great...

Day!

I woke up late to hear the rain hitting my window, and I immidiately thought about calling Giddo to take a walk under the crying sky. I started my computer as I always do as a start of the day, to see HaLa oline. The day I though couldn't get any better proved me wrong. 

I enjoyed a great conversation with her about twilight and the "egyptian dude" that she hates. Haha it was so much fun hearing her talk about him, I have never before witnessed her anger being taken out like this. Way to go Bestiiiiis.

Later on I see my other favorite people Princess and Giddo online wich made my day even better. I decided to kidnap Giddo from her computer to go out ad enjoy a rainy walk  after interesting conversations with all my three freaks.

Bian Giddo for the shocking almost news, haha still can't forget your expression and you were great at taking the news about the thing that i though about thinking of it to be possible. And tshinsha kockdguma... It's just a hindi situation, I give it no more than a month! Na henbokke always and forevaaaa...

MaKe a

...Difference

I just signed a petition to Danish Prime Minister Lars Løkke Rasmussen, who will be hosting the Copenhagen climate negotiations in December.

Many leaders are promising to help people living in extreme poverty adapt to the effects of climate change. This sounds great, but unfortunately, on closer examination, it turns out most of this money could be double counted - it's money that has already been promised as development aid.

This double counting is dangerous as it undermines both sustainable international development and a good global deal on clime change. It needs to be exposed and stopped. As host of the Copenhagen talks, Mr. Rasmussen is one of the people best placed to make this happen.

Please join me in taking action here:
http://one.org/international/actnow/copenhagen/index.html?rc=copenhagenpaste

Together as ONE we can make a difference!

LoVe...

or not?

How do you know when your inlove or starting to like someone? Is it when you start thinking about that person right before sleep, wanting to kill him or her? Regretting certain things you said and wanting to have another chance to say what's left in your mind? Is it when you feel bad about judging and then realizing that you somehow want to understand  him/her more then understanding youself?

The things I mentioned are only a few examples of what alot of people thinks has to do with falling inlove. The first one is me. But seeing a friend of mine falling into the same trap over and over again, thinking that she's starting to like someone to realize that it's only a game her head plays with her, makes me wonder.

It's always the same pattern, finding someone who she thinks will never be interested in her to become her hearts target. She still tries not to show her feelings and still somehow ends up to become the target of that persons heart . That friend, (yes you....7akeera) freaks out when things get a bit more serious to block and delete that person from her life, to find her next victim. I'm saying this because I love you... STOP running away and face it!!!

Open...

up? 

 Have you ever felt the need of being found out crying or being in trouble. Hearing a voice in you're head screaming for help but your mouth and heart refusing to let it out?

Some people loose trust in everyone around, to only count on themselves. They learn how to not expect anything from others to save themselves from dissapointment. Not being able to relay on anyone but themselves makes it worse when they let their gards down, to let someone in.

Those who says they'll never put themselves in that position are living in denile because people come in to our lives without asking for permission. We manage to somehow built up our hopes and expectations without any warnings.

Not saying I need help doesn't mean that everything is fine. Sitting alone on a swing late at night hiding under a dark shadow, looking up at the black skyfield is a way of relaxing, but it won't give you full satisfaction having great people around you helps alot, you won't even have to talk about you're issues to feel better.

Another Week

to survive...
I wanted this week to end as soon as we started it, thinking that I'd rather have my usual classes than a theme week. We worked in groups with work inviromental and security issues. It was actually quite fun exept for 2 lectures that... Well put us to sleep.

Working with new people was interesting, I'm kind of happy that I got to work with them, this time for a change. My weeks highlights though were being able to spend more time with BooLa and sitting in a fire truck with Alex who also was overly exited about it.

This week had something else waiting, something that could only happen to me. My principal found out that I had too many credits and yet too little, don't ask how... I was forced to drop one of my courses(one I really wanted) to start another one with less credits because of a misstake that I wasn't responsible for. Yukh... I haven't even been able too meet my friends.


I'm just happy that I have korean dramas to make my life easier. Thinking about it, watching you're beautiful wasn't really what made my week easier, but a dream I had of someone visiting and comfortinging me, someone whom I can never be compared to in this life or the next.

women

in Africa...

Just weeks ago in the West African country of Guinea, countless women were brutally raped in a public stadium when soldiers stormed a peaceful protest. The world reacted with outrage, but Guinea is just the tip of the iceberg.

What happened in Guinea is a visible example of the violence and abuse that threatens women and girls all over the world. In the eastern Democratic Republic of the Congo, 36 women and girls are raped every day. This is the world's shame.

Read more about it in the link below and take action, stand up for humanity!http://www.change.org/actions/view/tell_the_un_the_rapes_must_stop_now?alert_id=UNSbpGHrTG

InTeresting daY

Ma ra2ayto min rabbi illa Jamila...
I was passing through the tunnel that I always do on my way home from school, but I had an interesting pass by unlike every other time today. I saw an old man going into that tunnel while saying my goodbyes to my friend Elin, not thinking to much about it.

He slowed down as I went in there, I immediately felt that something was wrong but decided to keep on walking that way (too lazy to take another way). He suddenly called for me, standing side by side, with almost two meters parting us before he came closer and closer on the verge of pushing me into the wall. I calmly answered his questions with my usual bright smile trying not to show my suspicions toward him.

I started walking faster to atleast reach where sunlight and people were. He felt what I tried to hide running after me saying that he  wasn't like that. I kept on smiling telling him that I was in a hurry, that I didn't think anything ill about him but he kept on going, telling me that he had kids and alot of other nonesence that never made sense to me.

I kept on walking until I felt in controll, I reached a living area. He had a hard time leeting go, making me keep him company by opening new discussions, I left him saying good bye after a long one. I noticed how hard it was for him to let me go, looking as if he was forced to do so for some reason.I didn't get why at, until I saw a man in that living area wich I thought was empty.