Lebanese or Swedish?
My parents always taught me how to be proud of my ethnic bakground, about my lebanese side. They made sure to give me two warm homes. Sweden and Lebanon, two countries that I love deeply willing to do anything for. The question here though is, was it a gift or a burden?
I feel like being in a love triangle, where two people are so inlove with me that they can't bare the thought of me choosing someone else. Those two end up letting one hand go and pushing me with it to the other person and using the other hand to keep me attached desperate for closure.
Being torn between these two countries left me with no clue of how to answer the question, were are you from? I never really had a problem with that question during my childhood because I knew the answer or I thought I did. I always proudly said that I came from Lebanon.
I still remember the day, when I realized that I never came from Lebanon. I'm a Lebanese for sure, but I litterly never came from Lebanon to Sweden. That's what Isac a friend of mine enlightened me with in 8th grade to prove a point. I tried so hard to prove him wrong but everything I said sounded like nonsense.
That's when I got lost not knowing who Iam, Wether I'm Swedish or Lebanese. The obvious wasn't so obvious anymore. I even looked up the word native country on the internet trying to find an answer. It said a country your raised in and love. I thought I couldn't get more confused but i did.
Because even though I was born, raised and totally inlove with Sweden I still had a major crush on Lebanon and in one way or another I was raised there, through my parents and the frequent trips we made. Do I have the right to decline one country to not acknowledge it as my rightful one?
The twisted part is that I never feel more Lebanese than in Sweden and that I never feel more Swedish than in Lebanon...
teta or should I say dramaqueen u just explained the situation for every single person living in 2 cultures:p So you should'nt feel alone and whenever ur feeling blue u know what to do:P come over and I'll stuff u with food and bad reality shows:P Love ya ( even though ur weird:P)
SvaraRadera/Princess
As anonym said your not alone with your feelings,why choose? can´t you just be both?
SvaraRaderac...you around :)
by writing this I think you will help out a lot of people who feel the same, u go girl!!!!
SvaraRaderayalla wish me luck I´m off to Leb in 2 days.......
It doesn't always have to be about what country you were born in or raised in... I think it's more about the way you were raised in, was it a lebanese or swedish way? My problme is that over there people look at me like the swedish one while here they look at me like the lebanese one... but I don't think I hav ever felt more comortable than when I am in lebanon, a country I would give anything for. And this is how I know where I come from, so you do the same. Don't ask what you should answer, just ask yourself what your most comfortable in being.
SvaraRaderayou write really good.
SvaraRadera